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The Loss Of Stuff Is Still Loss

November 21, 2013

11 days ago the house I grew up in caught fire. No one was hurt and the structural damage wasn’t devastating, however the smoke damage was significant, and as a result almost everything in the house has now been thrown away. My family was insured but there are so many items that all the money in the world can’t bring back.  

I say this is the house that I grew up on but I lived in about 10 different houses before I was 14.  My biological mother was mentally ill and we lived on welfare with subsidized rent. Whenever she exhausted her social options wherever we were living, she would move us somewhere else. I never felt like I had a home until my life changed dramatically and my aunt became my legal guardian.

It is my aunt’s house that burned and I am beyond thankful that no one was injured in the course of the fire, but my heart is still broken for the loss of all the irreplaceable little things that made it home. Every photo is gone. Every Christmas ornament. Artwork by my great grandmother. Heirloom furniture. All of those precious things that little hands created over the course of childhood.

All gone.

Even though I’m not able to do much of anything to help being so far away, I’m very much feeling this along with my family. I haven’t lost anything material myself in the fire since I moved out over 10 years ago but I am empathetic and sentimental and it rips me up inside to think about everything that isn’t there any longer. It really hit me on the 13th when my aunt told me the extent of the smoke damage.

I’m just profoundly sad, and haven’t felt much like writing or crafting which isn’t great since I have a craft fair booked for Sunday. Thankfully 99% of my stock is already made for that but my heart isn’t in it at all.

I have been cooking though so I’m sure I’ll pick up with more entries either on the weekend or next week.

One positive thing that happened a week ago today was that I became a first time auntie to a beautiful little niece. She was an unexpected surprise being born a bit early but she’s healthy and that’s all that matters. Now I need to make a great effort to restrain myself from buying adorable tiny baby things everywhere I go, which isn’t such a bad thing. :)

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From → Ramblings

2 Comments
  1. Thank you :)

  2. So sorry for your loss but am relieved to hear no one was hurt.

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